Somebody hold me too close,
Somebody hurt me too deep.
Somebody sit in my chair
And ruin my sleep
And make me aware of being alive,
Being alive.

Somebody need me too much,
Somebody know me too well,
Somebody pull me up short
And put me through hell
And give me support for being alive,
Being alive.

Make me confused.
Mock me with praise.
Let me be used;
Vary my days.
But alone is alone,
Not alive.

Somebody crowd me with love,
Somebody force me to care.
Somebody make me come through,
I'll always be there, as frightened as you,
To help us survive
Being alive.

The song above (Being Alive) is one of my favorite musical song. I came across that song when I was watching the VCD of Hey! Mr. Producer! several years ago, and the VCD has made me fall in love with many musical songs.

But this song is a bit special to me. Because, we have to go back a few years here lol, I once read somewhere that half the people we meet everyday are not alive (mentally of course, or the writer should be in an asylum of some kind). I remember vaguely the writer said something about people not having a dream. Not having known what to do, or where to go, or what they want to do.

Everytime the above song crossed my mind, the writings immediately come to mind as well. And everytime I would ask myself..

"So...how to know if I am alive?"

I look at myself and I wonder:
Does worrying about my work every single day mean that I'm alive?
Does feeling happy everytime I see the christmas light-up mean I'm alive?
Can saving money to go to Japan be counted as having a dream?
Does working hard to improve my Japanese mean I have something I want to do?

And everytime, I would incline to say YES, it does, and it can.
And when I read the lyric of the above song, I think that being alive is to be able to have emotions, to be able to feel the need to continue surviving, and the most important thing for me, being alive is to be able to feel grateful for the life itself.

Well, this is solely my opinion of course. And I'm not much of thinker..so...:lol:
But it does give something to think about, isn't it? :D